The Saddest Part

My life was in your hands,
We had something,
And the secrets we shared,
They turned into you don't care,

I gave up all my shadows,
And that is the coldest truth,

And I said I would try,
I said now,
I already you my heart,
You're still somewhat empty,
And that is the sad part,

You had me looking for you,
Even when I couldn't find you,
I was willing,
And willoing has left me behind,

I'm above all this blame,
My scars bare no shame,
I loved you the best I could,

And I gave you my heart,
I would try my best,
But it wasn't enough for you,
And that is the sad part,

The coldest part,
And you know I paced you so far above me,
I placed you too far above me,

And I gave you my heart,
Like a flower in full bloom,
I gave you my heart,
Now you're love felt so damn empty,

And that is the saddest part,

My life was in your hands,
It's certainly now time for me to say good-bye,
It eneded with you . . .

The End

Nothing Lasts Forever

I sometimes think,
How it could have been,
When love was in our hands,
Saying goodbye is like rewinding,

Let me remind,

You're the star light,
My my dark times,
The voice that told me,
Everything is alright,

The reason for believing,
That maybe,
Just maybe love would last forever,

I wonder if I'm on your mind,
Do you miss the memories?
I should have never let you go,
All those lonely nights with a bottle of scotch,

You're the poieces,
To me in the belief,
That love would last,
Nothing lasts forever,

When the kies are dark,
I'll always be here,
No matter,
Please think of me too,

Nothing lasts forever

Thousand Years

My heart beats fast,
Colors and all the promises,
How to be brave,
How to be strong,

You show me,
By your love,
One step closer,
All doubts suddenly fly away,

All of my life,
I died everyday waiting,
Darling don't be afraid,
I have been searching for you,
For thousands of years,

Time stands still,
Like a rose in time,
Even if she doesn't know,
I will be brave,

I won't let anything come between us,
Everything will be alright,
One step closer,

I have died,
Waiting for this chance,
It feels like I've been loving  you for thousands of years,
Time brought us this moment,

Hush,
Be still,
Don't be afarid,
Take my hand,

One step closer,
Just another step closer,

My darling,
I died trying to look for you,
I waited,
I'll wait another thousand years,

Just to have you to love.

The End

Magnum Opus Release February 2012

MAgNUM OPUS

We aRe a great work of art . . .

2012

We weRe made iN love,

Now in liviNg pRoof,

Be Now mAde ceRTaiN,

Now iN liviNg MeMory,

We aRe oNe,

All uNique iN ouR wAys,

May God bless You PeoPle,

And ThaT you RealIze,

We Are A gReAt woRk of aRt. . .

 

ConTenTs Page:

Thanks You’s & Introduction

1.                   Magnum Opus * ( Intro ) *

2.                 Try With me

3.                 The gift of love

4.                 Heal

5.               The Breaking of Dawn * ( interlude ) *

6.                 Beautiful Reign

7.                 Glimmer of Hope

8.                 Rest in peace

9.                 Ring of Love

10.              Aurora

11.               A New Day * ( interlude ) *

12.              Footprints

13.              Quietude

14.              Faith

15.              Stairway to Heaven

16.              Give love a Chance

17.              Trust a Prayer * ( interlude ) *

18.              Shaded Grey’s

19.              The Unfolding Rose

20.            Wounded Healer

21.              Unconditional Love

22.            Dear Friend

23.            Wings of a dove

24.            Love Gives Us WiNgs * ( interlude ) *

25.            Light

26.            Tears of My Heart

27.            Live It Up

28.            The Road to Freedom

29.            Candle

30.            The Victory of Christ

31.              Set Fire To Your Reign * ( outro ) *

32.            For you  ( BONUS CUT ) * * *

33.            The ONe   ( BONUS CUT ) * * *

Thank You’s

Thank you God so much for giving me the opportunity to write and being able to share my work with so many people that I may know or not. Thank you for the trials, happiness and the road traveled to get this far and putting all this work into writing. Truly all Glory belongs to you God, Our Loving Father!

I want to thank Gerry Alphonse for continuing to inspire me and guiding me in my life in faith and as my best friend, companion and spiritual partner. May God bless you for all that you have done for me.

Mom & Dad, you’ll always be the ones in my heart. Thank you so much for giving me and the opportunities to live a beautiful life! I am so blessed to have parents like you. God bless you my Mother & Father!  

To Ian John & Anne Marie Khan, both of you, since the beginning have been there for me. As friends and as personal spiritual partners. Thank you so much for listening to me all those years ago and as friends. God bless you both!

My Brother Michael and my sister Catherine,

Both of you are an indispensable part of my life. I thank God for having such siblings like you by my side. Although we may have not been able to get along in the past, it is good to know you are doing well in your lives. May you both be blessed and always know I am here for you!

My friends, colleagues and acquaintances. Thank you all for the trials, tribulations, the joys, the sorrows, the frustrations & all the things that make life seem like an endless adventure! Thank you and God bless that I got to know such people!

Lastly, but never the least. To anyone reading this volume, I hope you will enjoy this volume. Though laced with so much of life’s intricacy, but that you appreciate life for its diversity and awesomeness in wonder! God bless you dear reader and may your reading this volume be a blessed one!

YouRs in The love of God,

James Mathew Fernandis

BehiNd The wriTing of “Magnum OPus”:

Magnum Opus was written very recently. Yet it sounded like years of effort had been put into it. Although this volume echoes with memories. It is by all means, up-to-date, frank and most of, a journey to be taken at heart.

This volume was written at separate intervals and was continuously re-written over 5 times. So this volume started with a couple of drafts. I didn’t like the outline or the outcomes of my last takes. So I wanted to start with a completely fresh new perspective, yet still staying true to the work in this volume.

Although this volume took a while to get done, I believe it was worth every inch, moment & effort. This is an intellectual, loving, experiencing, sharing and learning volume. A very different one from my last volumes of Embrace & ETERNAL. And I wanted it to be different, not repetitive. Like a road you walk along, not everything remains the same. In time things change. For worse or not, I leave that for you, the reader to decide for yourself.

The remaining part of this volume was written in Hong Kong & finally completed in Malaysia. From 2010 till recently, December 2011, was this volume completed. Each of this volume’s 31 + additional 15 pieces of poetry written at different intervals of time throughout the past 2 years, surprisingly this sounds like I was keeping a diary. Indeed this volume rightfully deserved the title of “Magnum Opus” because of the seemingly sheer amount of effort, time & love put into completing it. 

I do hope you will enjoy this volume, as much as I did writing it. Indeed, it has been a blessing to write this volume.

May God bless you dear reader and that you be blessed reading this volume!

We can lift ourselves out of ignorance, we can find ourselves as creatures of excellence and intelligence and skill.

-         Jonathan Livingston Seagul

I will give myself,

My everything and my best,

To reach you God,

Because you fulfilled my entirety,

You’re love embraces the endless stars,

The eternal love you’ve given to us,

Since the beginning of time,

Laid down in ages past and unforgotten,

History’s pages stained with sin,

Redeem us you have through Jesus Christ,

Unfailing is your love till the end . . .

- Memoirs of James Mathew Fernandis